Shitty days

Having shitty days recently.
Good things and bad things in life and everything. But it seems like its losing its balance. Totally off the track, and I was bummed out.
Nothing seems to be going well lately. Luckly this does not happen to me often, but unfortunately it is happening to me right now.

Wondering what people do when things are not going well.
Fight over it? go to bed and transport yourself into good dreams which are not even real? talk to your friends? go out for drinks? and drugs? Everyone must have their own way.
I think I am going to wait until everything cools off and get back to the normal temperature.
Already learned things from bad experiences. It still makes me want to cry when I think back bad experiences, but I am not going to cry. Cause I want to be stronger and smarter.

What you think is good may not be good to some people, more than that, it may be really bad to some people.
People may not react as how you expect them to. At work, I meet many people with attitude and are rude, impolite, selfish, kingish/queenish and no appreciation at all. I should not be affected by them. But they affect me when I am sort of weak.
I imagined what if there was a medicine which takes these bad energies out off me when I am getting weak mentally. But then if I learn to take these medicines, I will forget how to deal with these feelings on my own and i won't be able to live without taking them. So technically it wouldn't help me, it basically kills me.

What helps me when I am going through difficult times is love. is not necessary one from your partner. It can be a love from anyone or anything. Receiving a hug is also a cure. So I want to be a person who can give love and hugs when others are feeling down or upset.

I may be wrong but I did what I felt right. but I cant help wonder,, is it even right or not?
Now seems like what other people think about me is like a buzz sound of a fly.
Once you notice it and pay attention to it, it keeps bugging you and annoying you and you get distracted and feel uncomfortable.
but if you don't care, its just some little action in the air and is not important to you. It matters only to others who give a shit about. But its just a buzz, it won't be any bigger and it won't fly anyone higher.

I am getting "Come home" calls from friends and family. This phrase never sounded any sweeter than how it sounds now. I am getting things done here. Once it completes, I will come home with clear minds and big smiles. Looking forward to the bright future!

hmm, I guess life IZ a lesson.

lesson is for everyone!

haha